Thursday, November 25, 2010

I Could have

One of the interesting things I find in taking public transportation is that you don't get to choose the people who come along with you. Some of these people are one of a kind , they could be characters in books.
The other day there was this teenage girl who got in the taxi , I guess she was 16. She had a pink bag with a lot of cute buttons on it. One of those buttons had a picture of Beethoven on it. I assumed she was fond of classical music as she was also reading a book about Bach. It seemed that she was going to some kind of sport class , she was carrying a badminton racket with her.
I really liked to start a conversation with her , but I didn't know what to say. I could have told her that just like her , I like pink color. I could have said that I like classical music too. I could have asked her about the book she was reading. And still , I found silence speaking instead.
I was gazing at the buttons on her bag and laughing , when she caught my eye. So I explained : " those buttons on your bag are really cute!" and she said: "thank you!" and that was it. She continued reading her book , and I continued listening to silence , singing happily this time.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Say it

If you have a problem , and you can't find who cares
may be it was because you didn't say it out loud
If you feel hungry , even when you're a baby
cry to your mom and then you'll be fed
If you can't breathe because someone's smoking beside you
Just say the words "would you turn it off?" , it always works
If you can't keep a secret , say that before they tell you one

They expect you to talk and not to cope , if you cope with what bugs you and never say a word
you will find chains tightening your chest and that's not pleasant.

So Say it Anyway! even if it's gonna hurt!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Not the Alpha

Not a single day in my life was it that I wished to be the alpha , I don't care if people obey me or not. I don't like to hold my head so high that the sun blinds me and I can't see the truth anymore. I am happy the way I am , I enjoy every breath , every heartbeat. I like it when I get so sleepy that I can't remember my own name , I like it when I shiver in snowy wheather.
I prefer to watch to a flower in its natural home , rather than in a vase and ready to die.
It doesn't bug me when no one laughs at my joke , the joke still makes me laugh. I'd rather walk slowly in the rushing crowd and watch them run past by me. I never wanted to be the first and yet I was never the last , I'm that person you see in the middle who wants to and always will remain in the middle.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

So Natural

Nature can be full of surprises Every day it teaches you a new thing
Watching the sun go up and down you learn that nothing it stable
The river flowing tells you that you gotta be patient
The ants walking on the ground show you that you gotta work hard to achieve
The dew on the ground teaches you tenderness
The birds in the sky give you the idea of looking at everything from above
The dying flowers show you that beauty is not ment to be forever

And when the nature goes mad , that's when it frights you
The floods , the earthquakes and all the thunders , are ways for the nature to scream
to kill , to injure!
And yet there will be no court for the convicted
BeCause that's the way things are and will be forever

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Free as a Tree

Green and tall , trees are considered to be one of my best friends. They connect earth to the big blue sky. With out them there'd be no apples for newtons to wonder about gravity , no bench for us to sit on and maybe no life at all.
It seems just a bit unfair that these innocents can't decide of their position , that is , they certainly can't move like the other creatures alive. They can't screame either. Can you imagine what it would be like if they could? We would be murderers who would have to wear earplugs while killing them. So perhaps it's for a good cause , but I still don't get it. They watch us everyday as we walk and talk past them in the parks , watch us kill their best buddies in the forsts and yet they don't seem to fight us as we fight each other , they don't envy us as we envy each other , they just simply remain the same loving creatures as they were from the beginning.
I have never climbed a tree , but I've touched many. It's so extraordinary that they get to be so tender and rough at the same time , so firm and so breakable , brown and also green. They're stuck where they are that they may seem prisoned but on the other hand they are freer than all of us spritually.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Bread and Butter

I've recently switched from eatting bread and cheese every breakfast , to bread and butter. I spend 2 minutes every morning absentmindedly staring at my sandwich befor eating it. There's this thought everyday that keeps me wondering.
Why do I have to have to smash the butter so it would form a thin layer on the bread instead of staying solidly seperarte frome it? Why can't I just give it a little time to melt , will it then choose to form the layer with out me pushing it?
They always say that time can ease things up a bit , at least for most of us. I imagine if I didn't have to be rushing to school I wouldn't mind giving the butter a little time to adjust to the new enviroment , considering it has just been in a refrigerator and now it finds itself in a much different place.
Surely if I was int the butter's shoes I wouldn't like the change. Now if some one had pushed me to become what I'm not wouldn't I react just the same way.
But as the clock thicks the butter slowly melts and adjusts without even noticing , the way I have never noticed me changing during the years.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

The Eyes

So I'm looking , I mean I'm not blind and I can see stuff around me , and I'm very greatful for that gift. Perhaps the most tricky thing to watch would be something that can watch back , the eyes of your own.
We think of them mostly as parts which grab the information about the surroundings , they widen up in the dark , tighten in the light. But what makes them so special is their ability to give as much information out as they let in. You can read emotions looking into a persons eyes. They give out happyness , sadness , amusement , terror and many other emotions. Have you ever wondered why is it that the tears should come from a part of the eye? Technically it's because in that moment the tear , which is salty water should washes the suface of the eye to let it remain clean , but tears are more than just salty water , they are the result of complex emotions of ours.
Eyes come in various colors like brown , blue , green. I wonder why they don't come in colors like pink , orange , gray or red. Are the coloring of the eyes just for the sake of our beauty , I mean what if our eyes didn't have any color and they were white , that would have been something freaky to look at.
You hear in many of the stories about that feeling when someones eyes meet the other's. So what happens at that moment that make it special like that? Isn't it because when you look into the eyes of that other person yor sure you can't hide emotionally from the other person and neither can they.
Though I've babbled a lot about the eyes , I still don't know much about them. Funny! I look at my eyes everyday and they look at me but we barely know eachother.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

How fast do we grow?

Seems it was only yesterday that I was watching "The men in black" and wondering who the black guy was , so my sister filled me in. And now today as I was wandering through the TV , some song caught my attention , it was something like this : " I woud never say never , I will fight , I will fight till forever ...". I recognized Justin Bieber , I knew him from that other song I'd heard , but I wasn't sure about the younger kid.
I got all curious and googled the song , it said that the other singer was named Jaden Smith. Smith?.. I suddenly recalled that I've seen the little kid on Oprah with his mom and dad , Will and Jaden Smith. So it was their child I was seeing after all , now a teenager. I was suddenly feeling a little old , if he was 13 now , how old would that make me? Ugh , I'm still used to the feeling that I'm 15 , but that's sure about to change. I'm about to turn 20 in 2 months , but somethings wrong. I mean I'm all grown up mentally and physically , it's just that I've never looked at myself that way , like an adult. Soon I will be going to work instead of college , no one would be asking me anything childlike , instead they'll be intereseted in my points of view. I guess I could manage , but I would never be the person I am now , I will this boring adult who thinks about serious stuff like money , apartments , the bills , the kids. Oh my god the kids! How can I be thinking about the kids when I'm one myself. I seriously don't wanno grow up right now , like if my life was a movie and some one had the remote , I would beg for a pause now.
Everbody excepts the grown up to be so different from the young , what if I don't want that? What if I wanno be my own version of adult , the one who's mostly a giant kid.
But at least I'm sure about one thing and that's I will some day change my mind , and will be the day for a new "play" button on the remote.